The Lotus Flower of emotions

Today as we experience the emotion of grief, as we grieve the loss of Rev. Master Chosei, I’d like to look further into this subject of emotions. Sometimes we oppose emotions to analytical thinking, or reason, or the intellect, and Continue reading →

How all things enfold to bring you home

Since as early as aged ten, I remember I struggled with the question of what is the purpose of life in general, and then my life – and how extraordinary it was that the world moved as if there was Continue reading →

A few thoughts on practice and sexuality

I felt I might attempt to write something about sexuality from the viewpoint of my Buddhist practice, a personal view. This isn’t easy, especially as a monk and celibate for decades, but I offer a few thoughts in the hope Continue reading →

My illness is not my True Nature

Of course the above title should be self-evident to a Buddhist but sadly that is not how I have felt till very recently. I have lived with mental illness most of my life. The symptoms of OCD (an anxiety based Continue reading →

The heart of the matter

Written in response to the last (Summer) issue of the Journal. As human beings, we face many challenges, and for those of us who experience post-traumatic stress disorder and accompanying anxiety and depression, everyday tasks can become monumental and require Continue reading →

An odyssey through depression (Part 2)

When visiting one of our smaller temples a few years ago, I was asked by the prior if I might talk about or answer any questions about training with depression. As they pointed out, most if not all of our Continue reading →

Dukkha of anxiety

Working with the dukkha of intense anxiety and panic attacks led me to meditation. At University I was offered CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) to help with this but declined this as it seemed too much like being clinically reprogrammed. At Continue reading →

The most imperfect ring-down

Anyone who has experienced intense anxiety in the form of panic attacks will know how this manifests: the racing heartbeat, hands shaking, difficulty breathing and speaking. As a lay trainee I train with a meditation practice; it is private and Continue reading →